Ek rasta

Dar to na tha tujhe khone ka
Qk milnA kahi likha hi nahi tha
Kuch pal aur gujar jaate saath
Shayad tujhe manjoor nahi tha

Tujhe sachchai kabool nahi thi
Yaad nahi dard sametne lagi
Samjhaya lekin tune ek na suni
Teri bewkoofiyaan sataane lagi

Dar bhi lagta to teri hi khatir
Lekin ab nhi kahna jikar ka
Ab juda hona hi ek raasta hai
Teri beparwahi , meri fikar ka

Ajnabi

Ajnabiyo aur diary k panno me
Ek cheej Ek jaisi dekhi hai maine
Na khyalo pe sawal kiye jate hai
Na dukhti rag pe hath rakhte hai
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Fark ye bhi hai diary khamosh hai
Bas aapka kaha sun leta hai wo
Ajnabi kabhi sahara ban jata hai
To kabhi nya jakhm de jata hai wo
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Aksar jo raat me tanha jagte hai
ya apne man ko diary bna lete hai
Ya ateet me apno ko dhoondhte
Ya kisi ajnabi ki dua maangte hai

akela chhor do yaaro

taan ke beparwahi ki
chadar
so rha hoon me..
yaaro apni nakamyabi pe haarke
ro rha hoon me
yaaro shukriya tum the to jindagi
haseen thi meri
ab jao sab ghar qk maut ki aur kahin
kho raha hoon me
ye barbaadi ke lamhe h bor ho jaoge
akela chhod do
pahli aur aakhiri baar kamjor
ho raha hoon me

yaad rakhna

saath agar chhoot jaaye, duaaon me yaad rakhna.
main agar na milu kal ko , yaadon me yaad rakhna.
saath hote hi chhotne ke liye hai
hamesha saath kaun rahte hai hai
hamari chhor jaane ki aadat nahi
aate hai aane wale , chale jaate hai
main kabhi chala jau kahi, yaro se meri baat karna,
rooth na jana mujhse, hmesha ki tarah maaf karna.
ek ghar hai mera beeti yaadon ka
yariyan na jaane kitni dafn hai jisme
tum agar koi ghar bana lo kal ko
ek kone me sahej kar rakh lena mujhe
ziddi hu main jante to ho, dil se jaunga to nahi yoon
lekin zara sa jhel lena , ho sakta k baad me bhi sataaun
takdeer se khwahish hoti meri yahi
jo mujhe mila hai wo bichchde na kabhi
khone ki aadat se fir shart lagaa li
samjha fir usse bhala koi jeeta kabhi
aadat nahi jaati hai meri bhulaane walo ko bhoolne ki
himmat hai mujhme agar meri galti ho to kaboolne ki
koi gunah tumhara kiya ho to kahna
adhoori baate liye mere saath n rahna
kal meri yaado me koi kasak na rah jaye
waise aata hai mujhe wqt ki chot sahna
mujhse jhagdo, baato, naseehato ko tum yaad rakhna
jindagi ka hissa na bna sako, yaado ke paas rakhna.

teenage, final part

prachi - mera bas chalta to tujhe hi gira deti.
nikhil - bhool jaa ab koi paise dunga tujhe.
prachi - mat de... tera phn gya na... usko ro maatha pakadke saale.
crowd gathered... and when crowd gathered, they take favor of girls only. nikhil couldn't do anything..
maahi was feeling better now.
she was sad but she was determined to forget the past and target the future.
animesh was again nice to maahi and maahi got her bestie back.
this was a story.. more than that this was a lesson.
it doesn't matter how nice u r writing.. it matters that how u r sharing the 'message' to people.
in all parts many things are written to describe the situation and psychology of a teen.
tough i m also a teen only but i tried to explain how much I could.
I don't have a good habit of checking back n rectify the mistakes in writhing. many parts are written in half- sleep. so sorry for the mistakes i did.
thank you all for reading.
all parts are here  - http://amitvishwas95.blogspot.in/?m=1
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comments are invited.
amit vishwas

teenage, chapter 4, part 4

prachi was trying to support her and make her handle the situation.
maahi was trying to show that she is fine but from inside she was broken. she was trying to understand that she had to study alot and hard. she was not knowing how to.
prachi - maahi !! tumko kaafi pending syllabus poora karna hai... bhoolo mat tum kyon aayi ho yahaan.
maahi - main kar rhi hoon koshish. mujhse ho nahi raha.
prachi - tell me kya ho rha hai.
maahi - main jab bhi padhne ki koshish karti hoon. main sochne lagti hoon k maine kya kar diya. sochte sochte main past me chali jaati hoon aur dimag me 100 baatein aati hai and i just can't focus on my study yar.
prachi - sun.... tere jo friends hai na... jinse tu kaafi baat kiya karti thi , talk to them wher u r sad.
maahi - long time i did not talk to them. un logo ne bhi ab mujhe serious lena chhor diya.
prachi - abey dost hai tere. aise kaise.
maahi - yr galti meri hai. jab main kota aayi thi. wo mujhe miss karte the. aur main unko. hm roj fb par ya whatsapp par baatein karte the. problems share karte the. group chat karte the.
prachi - to wapas kar lo na...
maahi - jab se nikhil meri life m aaya.. maine un logo ko miss karna chhor diya. main itni busy ho gyi k maine un logo  k liye time nikalna band kar diya.. wo msg karte. msin unse kahti k free hoke reply karungi. free hone par bhi main unke liye time nahi nikalti ye sochkar k wo puchenge kaha busy thi to kya reply dungi. maine unko miss karna chhor diya but wo mujhe miss karte rhe... aur mere ignore karne k baad bhi mujhe text karte rhe. dheere dheere un logo ne mujhe msg dena bhi chhor diya. ab mujhe ni pta main kis munh se unko wapas text karu.
prachi - maahi... wo dost h tere. dost are always dost. unko text to kar.
maahi - nahi yar... whem they needed me i was never never never there. pahle main dosto se aage hoke baat karti thi.. wo ni btaate to bhi samjh jaati k unki problm kya hai. unko samjhati. unse poochti.. pta nahi . itne waqt m kin kin ko mujhse kya kya chahiye hoga. un logo k bolne ki aadat nhi h. kitna bura lga hofa unko.. wo mere liye busy routine me se bhi time nikaal lete. main unke liye time nahi nikal paayi aur mahino baad aaj free hui hu ??
prachi - tu text to kar... ksun thi teri sabse achchi dost.
maahi -  ani
prachi - kya kar rhi hai wo.
maahi - he is a boy. animesh. main ani bulaati usko. hm log bahot achche dost the. we didn't talk for 2 or more months.
prachi - la tera phn de..main pataati hu usko wapas.
prachi texted him - helo ani !
animesh - o hi... kaisi ho.. !
prachi - ekdum mast... tum...
animesh - i m alright !! padhai wadhai k kya haal hai... bahot padhai kar rhi ho aajkal.. us baar to top karne ka plan h kya ??
maahi took the phn from prachi n texted -
maahi - haan !! tum btao... kya chal ra..
animesh - tu theek to hai... ??
maahi - kyo ??
animesh - yaar !! jab bhi main kahta tha tu itna padh rhi hai... tu doctor bn jayegi... tu bola karti thi - najar mat laga... tu bol bol k mujhe fail karwayega... aur 2-4 dialogue diya karti thi... aj tune kuch nhi kaha.
maahi -;kahna to maine pahle hi chhor diya tha.
avinash - reply karna chhora tha... but jab reply karti thi...kahti yo yhi thi na.
maahi - tujhe sab yaad hai... wesa ka wesa.
avinash -  meri yahi problem hai.. main  ek hi raste pe chalta hoon.. log raste badal lete hai... aur faasle badh jaate hai.. shayad mujhe bhi raste badalne ki aadat daalni padegi.
maahi - what nonsense... shut up yr.
avinash - ab bta hua kya tujhe... aise to tu text ni karti.. kya chahiye.
maahi - don't be rude yr... bahut kuch ho gya yr.
avinash - to tu chahti hai main teri problem sunu... aur solution nikaalu.. well..mana to main karunga nahi.. tu jaanti hai ..buri aadat hai.
maahi could not reply anything... tears rolled down on her cheeks. she was remembering the talks the fun and the stupid things they used to do together.
avinash - oye bta to kya hua..
avinash - excuse me... so gyi kya msg likhte likhte
avinash - arey main majaak bhi ni kar sakta... bachche ki jaan legi... jaldi bta mujhe date pe bhi jaana h kuch der me.
maahi - tu date pe jaake aa fir btaati hu.
avinash was offline.
maahi could not face him when he was online so in short she said everything to avinash.
prachi called nikhil - next friday ko 1 tareekh hai... paise pahuncha diyo.
nikhil - de dunga na yr
prachi - isliye baar baar kah rhi hoon taaki tu baad me koi bahaana na maarey.
nikhil - le lena.. pakka...
prachi - 5000 chahiye.
nikhil - itne liye hi nahi itne q du...
prachi - abey... 10 bhi maang sakti thi... tu deta hai k tere baap ko ye saare msg, photos wagerah bheju..aur poore mohalle me popular kar doon.
nikhil - bol to aise rhi hai jaise mere paas kuch hai hi nahi popular karne ko... jitne liye the.. utne hi dunga wapas.
prachi - ruk. ma ka cl aa ra.. tujhe dobara call karti hu.
....she cut....
maahi - kisi ka bhi to call nahi aa rha.
prachi - bolna pada.. nhi to usko lagta tere msgs pics hmare liye weak point hai. usko feel ni hone dena hai. warna wo bhi hmko blackmail kar sakta hai. uske oaas jo jo hai unko thikaane lagaana padega...but kaise...
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wait for the next post.

teenage, chapter 4, part 5

3 days to new year.
maahi was trying her best to fight with the situation n past.
after dinner she and maahi were watching some movie in mobile phone.
maahi saw , it was animesh....
ani - tum kuch btaane wali thi.
maahi - 1 din lagta hai date se aane me.
ani - hafto mahino tak free hone wale busy logo ko 1 din ka late hona bhi bardasht nahi hota wow..... !! madam hm bhi insan hai.. hm logo ko bhi kuch kaam hote hai. well i got my net pack now. kal raat khatm ho gya tha.
maahi felt bad with the rude answer. it was the same avinash with whom maahi used to say "tujhe reply karne me itta time q lagta hai..meri tarah turant reply ni kar sakta.. kitno se ek saath chat karta hai... jab se teri girlfriend bani hai mujhe bhool gya hai"...
she replied, - kuch nahi... nothing important
ani- maine pahle ki tarah baar baar force karna chhor diya hai.. so tell me if something is there , warna main chala sone.. mujhe un logo k liye time waste karne ka shouk nhi , jinki life mein tabhi exist karta hoon jab unko kuch karwana hota hai.
maahi - nothing important.. bye.
avinash - bye.
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prachi - bta deti na usko ..kyu bhaav kha ri.. uska bhaav khana banta hai.
maahi - things are not like before between us,
ye baat wo kai baar bola... mujhe aaj realize hua... things are not like before between us.. i lost my best friend.
--- notification tone rang in phone ---
ani- sorry for being rude.. i know there is some problem .. tell me what happened.
maahi - u did not change.. ab bhi meri galti par tum sorry bolte ho.
ani- koshish ki bahut change hone ki. kya karu. akkal maari gyi h meri. bol kya hua.
maahi - sorry.. for everything.
ani- sun sun k pak gya hu... kaam ki baat karo..
maahi - actually ...... (and maahi sent everything )
ani - hmmm.... well done... clap clap clap... mjaa to bahot aaya hoga uska bistar garm karke.
maahi - tumse share kiya taaki tum kuch bolo mujhe.. suggestion do mujhe.. jale p namak lgaane ko nhi kaha.
animesh - are u the same maahi jisko problem hoti thi agar meri girlfriend mujhe uske saamne flying kiss de deti thi. aur kahti thi k ye sab kuch jyada ho raha.
maahi - yes.. i m the same. what u wanna say... i m a bitch...
ani - uske paas kya kya hai tumhara.
maahi - paise, kuch cards, kuch gifts jo maine diye..bas
ani - abey.. !! i mean.. aisi cheeje jo usne leak kar di to tujhe problm ho sakti hai.
maahi- uske phn k msgs.. kuch pics... don't know if he made mms.
ani - yaani sab kuch phone m hai. usse milo..kuch plan karke phn chheen lo.
maahi - not possible !! wo milega hi nahi.
ani - disha ko contact karo... agar usne ab tak nikhil se baat n ki ho to wo mil legi.. she can help u.
maahi - yess.. but agar disha ne phone chheen liya aur usne paise ni diye to.
ani - bhaad m jaaye paisa. wo cheejein jyada important hai.
maahi - correct.. !! disha uska phn chheen payegi ???
ani - fenk to sakti h..ya...memory card nikaal le...
( and ani shared his plan to maahi..maahi told it to prachi )
maahi - ok..let me call her first.
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prachi - plan to superb hai... mere paas number nhi hai uska kal milti hoon usko.
prachi met disha, disha said that she did not even attend her call..nor she did from her side.
prachi made a plan and asked disha to msg him..
disha msged nikhil
disha - i m missing u.. but u cheated me.
nikhil - u trusted her... she is a bitch ... did she give u any proof ??
disha - no... she just showed me some pics.. u were together in mall and many places.
nikhil thought prachi can be trapped back cz she dint know anything.
nikhil - arey we were friends. usko mujhse pyar ho gya.. maine mana kiya aur tumhare baare m btaya..isliye usne ye sab kiya. next time miley to baat na karna usse.
disha.- aww... sorry maine galat samjha tumko.
nikhil - sham ko milo..main sab clear karta hoon.
disha - chambal garden m milte hai.
--- evening both went chambal garden together.
prachi also reached there n she maintained distance so that nikhil can't see her.
both went near water.
disha - meri ek pic lo yha...single...tumhare phn ki camera quality achchi hai.
nikhil clicked a pic
disha - achcha... ek pic tumhari leti hoon.
nikhil - ok...lo...
disha took the phone in hand and threw it far in the water.
nikhil was shocked ... he slapped disha - kya kiya tera dimag kharaab hai.
nikhil got a tight slap on her face. it was prachi.
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wait for next part

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